what i'm waiting for? whehter I'm truly your good friend after all? am I the cause of your misery? will it be better if I keep a low profile? my presence will ever affect you? who truly cares and who 'truly' don't? am I causing you too much trouble? if i should let it go? do you hate me for who i am or you assume i pretend to be? what i'm doing is totally redundant? should i be what i am meant be? should i continue a loner's life? whether i've doubts in my own capability? if i'm asking too mush from anyone of you? if i'm really a person who is hard to approach? what's bothering me? if it was a mistake that we have met? why do you keep doing things that you don't want to? if you ever turst me that much ever more? what if we don't talk anymore? when will be the day when you'll stop throwing your nonsense at me? maybe i'm not a good friend to be after all.