"OUCH!!!"

PAIN was the only thing I felt at the back of my lower right gum for the whole of Saturday's afternoon and night. The pain was so unbearable that I kept tossing around on my bed the night before. (Hey, don't think otherwise.)The feeling was like taking a piece of rock and forcing it into your gum, rubbing and tearing the tissues around it. The result was reddness and swelling of the gum. I could clearly see the swellness of the gum by comparing it with the opposite gum. IT IS HUGE.

To tell you honestly, it took me nearly 15 hours to realise that I had a toothache. You can't balme me for that. Like most people, I always had this idea that it was some ulcer at the gum. Furthermore, I had experieced this kind of pain before and it went off after a day or 2. After reading this, you may want to visit any dentist to do a check up before you feel PAIN.

Went off straight to the dentist at 9 am in the morning. I was told the docotr was book the whole day till 11 pm. But fortunate enough, the nurse was able to slip me into the waiting slot. My turn came and I went in to the check up room.

The sore was caused by the growing wisdom teeth and the constant tearing of the gum by the wisdom teeth located above it. Yellowish fluid can be seen flowing out of the gum when the doc press on it lightly. Yew...

Anyway, both wisdom tooth had to be extracted and the one at the bottom has to be done surgically. The whole process took 40 mins and all I felt was this force acting upon my gum. I couldn't feel any pain because half of my mouth was numbed. All I could sense was the cracking sound of my teeth being extracted out. Imagin a rusty screw being dig out with a pincer. Cool.

As for now, I can't take any hot food and spit. I was told that saliva can help to stop bleeding in my mouth. So don't always try to wash your mouth when your teeth drops or something like that. It is supposed to stop bleeding. Not forgetting to mention, I have to swallow 4 different kinds of tablets prescribed by the doc after each meal. It is so tiring and irritating to take them.

Where?
Click... Click...
What are you staring at? In this dark room with the ceiling light swaying above me.
Click... Click...
Can't see my face can you?
What? Stop playing with the light you say.
No, no you don't wish I do that.
I'm all filthy and messy. Unless you don't mind it.
Click... Click...
Where am I? Away from the light standing right in front of you.
Why did you move back? Well, you didn't mind seeing how scary am I, right?
When and how did I get here? I have always been standing here... Right in... front.. of you.
He..He.. he..

Who?
Now, now... I don't have to feel lonely any more.
I have you to accompany me in this god damn forsaken place.
Come on, let's have fun together... Let's see, what should we start with...
Again. You ask who am I? Ha. Ha. I am you, my dear. Can't you see?
You are I...
Lost in the neither world.

How?
La, la, la...
Sing a song with me partner. Don't be shy. Ha, ha.
It's too quiet here and it has always been since the day they brought me here.
They created me and I became their guinea pig. An experiment to play with.
Threw into a maze. They told me to choose my path and shut that metal door with a BANG!.
Laying on that bloody soggy ground. Helpless and tired.
Forcing myself up, the air was moist and thick.
Even till now, I still remember the smell of dried blood and rotten corpses.
Surrounded with stairs, looking parallel, linked and reflected at one another.
I look up, confused, dizzy and felt like puking.
Say, you should know how it feels. You were there.. Ha, ha... Unlucky you.

I took the first step up the stairs.
With each step I took, I bear the hope to see that freaking glimpse of light.
But NO. Each door that I open, I see S. T. A. I. R. S. MORE BLOODY STAIRS.
I didn't give up. I carried on bearing with this single pathetic life of mine.
You asked how long I was kept in there? He, he...
Honestly, I didn't know. In there, time freezes and I see no clicking.
I fking cried for directions. Asked for at least some hints and resources to replenish my energy.
But there was absolutely no answer.
I wasted my energy cursing and swearing the beasts who brought me here.
Why did I have to go through this? Of all people, why me?
You bloody son of the bitches! Don't you know that I can feel?
And right now, PAIN is the ONLY thing I can feel and HATRED is the thing I can fking express to you, my CREATORS or should I say FIENDS.

He, he..
How lovely I put it. Ha, ha... FIENDS! Ha,ha...
The next thing I knew, I was here. Like you. Ha, ha..
All trapped. So lonely. In this cold world where no one will ever know your existence for the rest of YOUR LIFE...

Why?
Don't cry. You still have me. I'll be your company.
I'll show you the world of hatred and pain.
I teach you to detest those who think we are weak.
I teach you crafts that enable you to be the MASTER of the world.
Use what I have taught you on to the FIENDS out there who played on us.
Show them we are not puppets who they can dispose as and when they freaking like.
What? You don't want? You are scared. You want to go home?
Ha. HA! HA! HA! There's no HOME for you, dear.
There's only burning HELL.
Be strong my lovely sister. For all you have left now is ME!

When?
We'll start today and we'll start now.
In this dark, cold and lonely room. Just you and me, my sister.
Take my hand. Follow me into this portal where you learn to HATE and instill PAIN into others.
Do believe that we are not alone. For I believe there are more to come.
Right?
You. Yes, you.
Together with my sister, we'll meet you. Soon...

Involvement
You threw yourself into the quicksand!
Took the dare and now you're complaining?
Shut that pathetic face of yours.
No one is going to care or help you.
Are you shouting? What is it?
"HELP!" you say. But who can hear you?



ill
The war is over.
The enemy's white flag swayed high.
Hoping for a better future.
Yet suffering with its aftermath
Here, feeling pain is not an option.



Tired
Do this and that and that and this.
You're so good and I should applaud you.
Feeling breathless?
No, you can't stop.
You are good at this.
Carry on.
Don't disappoint me.
Go on...



Fortune
Pile of gold you see.
Pile of mud I see.
Branded clothes you wear.
Ragged clothes I wear.
Your watch spells accessory.
My shadow spells time.
You say I'm rich.
I say make me itch.