Only time can tell
24 April 2008 - 18:31
I was once asked if I ever feel anything other than being happy? Why do I always look so carefree and be so positive about things? Do I not get frustrated or vexed over anything in this world? How am I able to cope with so many things and yet end them off so nicely?
Remember about the monk and man story I spoke to you in the previous post? The man asked the monk if life is all about sufferings and nothing else. While the monk reply was that life is not determined by your personal emotions, but time itself. Sacrifices have to be made but which should you let go and make yourself happier at that moment of your life.
If you understand the above paragraph, you will most likely guess the answers for the questions above. But then again, is life really that easy to be satisfied after all? My answer is "Is not easy leading my kind of life..."
"We yearn to have super natural powers and lead a fairy tale life. But we all know these are just dreams we fantasize about. Because all these are impossible, I shield myself, put on a facade and choose to be hurt at certain times. Such sacrifices and pains are noting compared to the destruction of my dream world. If I have to lie to protect what's precious to me, am I being too naive?"
A week pass and the road seems so congested
19 April 2008 - 22:17
At this day, I flip the hard cover of my diary, tilt open my foundation pen and as I begin writing my story on a fresh new page, I entitled my first chapter "Why?"
18th April 2008, 11:59 pm. Another second from now, the first week of school term has marked its end leaving me with many thoughts and feelings. Frustrated, depressed, happy or confused? I am unsure of which should I be feeling right now.
I was hoping for a good head start especially when this is my last year in school. Concentrating on my studies was my utmost priority as I have no intention of leaving a trace of "black" marks in my academic results. Making new friends was not so much of a concern because some how or in some ways, I make friends quite easily. But staying closer with friends can seem a little meddlesome especially when some of us are drifting from one another due to separation from CCA or class arrangements.
So I thought I would fully utilize every opportunity that comes to gather friends from all sides of the world to work and enjoy the company we have with one another. In fact, the opportunity came and that was the River Raft Race event which I have taken up to do with reasons that I am unsure of back then. No matter what the reason is, one thing for sure is that I am reluctant to leave a very family oriented organization that has brought me new friends (sub or org comm) who have enriched my life in SB. I have them so much to thank for.
Now talking about class arrangement. I am pretty happy for the fact that I am still kept with the same class as last year. The only troubling thing is that 2 of my gang (The Miss Family) has been transferred to another class because of Entrepreneurship Concentration. The puzzled part is there are 3 others who are taking the same concentration who came over to our class. I am not saying that I do not welcome them, in fact I am happy to be able to make friends with them in time to come. But why did the management team had to transfer them to other unfamiliar classes? Can't they stay with the class they are close to? In any case, I wish all of them all the best and hope you guys can find joy in staying which classes you are posted to.
On the topic on staying closer with friends, I think my first step would be my participation in DBIT Bonding Day. It is an event where I actually work with my class ex chairman who has always been the middle man of two clans at the start of year 2 last year. I must say he has indeed done an excellent job in bonding the class. A very easy going person yet very decisive. May our first batch of committee strive to make our first bonding day event a success with so much fun and excitement.
I have received news that I have been elected as one of the four members to participate in Worldskill Competition in Singapore. When I heard the news, feeling happy and overjoyed seems so awkward. Frankly speaking, I did not expect myself to be one of the four much less my interest in this competition seems so scattered. Hoping to be free from the grasp of this competition and enjoy my last year to the fullest seems so impossible right now. Trainings after trainings will commence pretty soon. Is my life chained up again?
There was once a wise man asked, "人生是不是一个苦字？" He asked if life is all so bitter? Everyday, new problems surface, troubles keep building up in all of us, frustration seems never ending and we feel so confuse. Is heaven putting us on a test to determine our survival that makes us stonger or are we just the pawn pieces of their chess game?
The monk thought for a while and said, "人生不能以苦字形容。但能以时间来决定。人生短短几年，要学会拿得起，放得下。" He said life is so fragile and is determined not by frustrations but time itself. Learn to accept and let go certain things in life. Accept tasks given to you postively and do them well so that you will not only be satisfied but confident in accomplishing much more than what you think you can. But in exchange, there are certain things that you have to learn to let go, sacrifice, before a crisis fall upon you. This is refer to as equivalent trade in life.
Upon hearing this, I questioned myself "Why am I so different then?"
"If life is like what the old monk has said, why am I not doing it? Why am I so different?"
Picture Post Again
13 April 2008 - 15:09
And another 8 more hours to go and it will be MONDAY, 14th April 2008!
At a certain time of this day you will find yourself waken up by a seemingly familiar ring from a device call an alarm clock. You open your blurry eyes and you say "Still early. Another 5 minutes". 5 minutes have passed, and you say "Another 5 minutes". After repeating the same phrase 6 more times, you scream and say "I AM LATE!".
School begins for all SP students tomorrow. If you are not aware of that, you should start worrying now. HeHe. Some of you will be sad while some will be, well, depressed. Did I forget to mention that some will be on clouds nine? In any case, a good start is already half a battle won. So don't be late and stay awake.
Tomorrow is first day of school, so I reckon there shouldn't be anything much. Don't miss the only day you can slack in school. Well, I end school at 6 though =].
In any case, most of us will be enjoying our last moment of private time slacking at home or out shopping, playing and what nodes. As for me, I spend my time designing t-shirt for DBIT Bonding day. That sounds really interesting right? Well, I am not complaining....
So here's some pictures you can enjoy for the rest of this post. =]
Oh ya, I am putting up some SB designs too. I was bored during ITP and went to try out Photoshop CS3. Enjoy again =]
For SB:
Package 1:
FRONT
BACK
Package 2:
FRONT
BACK
For DBIT:
Package 1:
FRONT
BACK
Package 2:
FRONT
BACK
Package 3:
FRONT
BACK
Package 4:
FRONT
BACK
Package 5:
FRONT
BACK
Package 6:
FRONT
FRONT
FRONT
BACK
BACK
Complaint? Why should you?
12 April 2008 - 18:19
Everyday we complaint and whine about many things under the sun. From personal affairs, work, studies, money and the list just keeps rolling. So maybe here's something for you which maybe your remedy for all your vexing troubles.
Enjoy!
I AM THANKFUL:
FOR THE WIFE
WHO SAYS IT'S HOT DOGS TONIGHT.
BECAUSE SHE IS HOME WITH ME
AND NOT OUT WITH SOMEONE ELSE
FOR THE HUSBAND
WHO IS ON THE SOFA BEING A COUCH POTATO
BECAUSE HE IS HOME WITH ME
AND NOT OUT AT THE BARS
FOR THE TEENAGER
WHO IS COMPLAINING ABOUT DOING DISHES
BECAUSE IT MEANS SHE IS AT HOME
NOT ON THE STREETS
FOR THE TAXES I PAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM EMPLOYED
FOR THE MESS TO CLEAN AFTER A PARTY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS
FOR THE CLOTHES THAT FIT A LITTLE TOO SNUG
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE ENOUGH TO EAT.
FOR MY SHADOW THAT WATCHES ME WORK
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM OUT IN THE SUNSHINE
FOR A LAWN THAT NEEDS MOWING,
WINDOWS THAT NEED CLEANING,
AND GUTTERS THAT NEED FIXING
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE A HOME
FOR ALL THE COMPLAINING
I HEAR ABOUT THE GOVERNMENT
BECAUSE IT MEANS WE HAVE FREEDOM OF SPEECH
FOR THE PARKING SPOT
I FIND AT THE FAR END OF THE PARKING LOT
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM CAPABLE OF WALKING
AND I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH TRANSPORTATION
FOR MY HUGE HEATING BILL
BECAUSE IT MEAN I AM WARM
FOR THE LADY BEHIND ME IN CHURCH
WHO SINGS OFF KEY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I CAN HEAR
FOR THE PILE OF LAUNDRY AND IRONING
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE CLOTHES TO WEAR
FOR WEARINESS AND ACHING MUSCLES
AT THE END OF THE DAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN CAPABLE OF WORKING HARD
FOR THE ALARM THAT GOES OFF
IN THE EARLY MORNING HOURS
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM ALIVE
AND FINALLY ,
FOR TOO MUCH EMAIL
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE FRIENDS WHO ARE THINKING OF ME
Pictures will do the talk today
09 April 2008 - 22:16
I have something in mind to blog about today. But will leave that till tomorrow, I hope.
Anyway, here are some repeating logos which I created for DBIT Bonding Day. This is the first time I am hearing about this event exclusive to DBIT. I wonder how it will go on that day.
Enjoy even though they are repetitive.
Is not easy, definitely not easy
06 April 2008 - 14:16
Is not easy, definitely not easy...
I was reading through some of the blogs today. And the thing I expected to happen has eventually taken place. Though it doesn't have a direct impact on me, but I feel so helpless knowing that I can't do anything to prevent this catastrophe from happening.
"Sometimes things are meant to happen. But it is not important to know how they happen but how to resolve them."
Working in a group is not easy, definitely not easy when our closest friends are concerned. We always have to be mindful of when to say the right things at the right time and how to sweeten every bad comments we have so that our parities' feelings do not get dampen or worst still, HURT. If it is friendship that we are trying to maintain making us do the above mentioned, what exactly is a truthful friendship then?
"I often asked myself if I am doing the right thing for you, or am I destroying you?"
Playing the bad person is not easy, definitely not easy when everyone starts to hate you instead of thanking you. Humans are weird creatures filled with anger and hatred, often triggered not by their sanity but largely from their emotions. And sadly to say, that negative side of ours is what keeping us together. To believe that bonds between friends are built based on love and trust is nothing but a fairy tale story. A community is built not because of the flowery word call LOVE, but our interest in a common enemy.
Recall every conversations you have with your group of friends and do you remember that a subject is always mentioned and discussed in your carefree discussions? And every time this subject is brought up, we exhaust ourselves in this discussion so much so that sometimes we offset the fact that who are we to speak about him/her? Unless we are Mr and Mrs Perfects, which hardly anyone is, maybe is time for us to consider thanking that person for bringing us together.
"If it wasn't for me being your subject of conversation, will you still be friends?"
Becoming a leader is not easy, definitely not easy when you are blamed unjustifiably. If you haven't noticed, the easiest way to safeguard your face from sticky situations is to dump the blame on someone. Very often someone who is, in your own opinion, lower than you? All we have to do is to push the responsibility to a particular person using our weights often refer to as "POSITION" or "SENIORITY" or simply put "OLD AGE".
Looking at our current practices in Singapore, as long as you are younger than someone, you are deemed to be inexperienced or childish often used by "SENIORS" who have limits to their vocabulary. Because we are young and capable, these seniors are simply jealous of our talents and given their limited spend of time, and their fear of losing or being shunned away because they are too senior, they throw all kinds of nonsensical tantrums and blaming others except themselves. Very often, their excuse would be, "I have already told you to do this this this and that that that. It is because of your mistakes that I am facing all the unnecessary troubles. You have to take responsible for it. I know you too well. You are not fit to be a leader."
Hold your horses senior. Before jumping to thesis that I am to be blamed for everything, please look at the bigger picture.
Firstly, can you scale how big my mistake is? I know even if it is a minor mistake and I can't do them well, does that give you any grounds to justify that I am incapable of doing something within your scope as well?
Secondly, the reason that you have assigned the job to me is because you trusted me in accomplishing them let say on behalf of you. And if you come blaming at the very second the job was not being done, have you schemed up every steps so that you can put the blame on me and push me to my limits?
Thirdly, which part of our conversation did I ever state that I didn't officially get the job done for you? Did you give me a chance to explain things first before storming your fouling temper on me?
Fourthly, after hearing me out and if you see that I have done something so wrong, will it be too late for you to be raging on me, dear senior?
Lastly, couldn't you just question me politely like how all other respectable seniors often known as honourable leaders will do? I am your subordinate learning to be a respectable leader like you. Or do you wish that I become your other side?
"So often that we are enraged at times, we miss out the big picture. Calm down and take things further. There is no point in bringing out our past mistakes and carry them on. A learning journey is all we should embark on now together."
I hereby apologise if somehow the scenarios above have inevitably in a way similar to any cases you have so happen to experience it before. I declare that I have written this post from personal point of view and self expression. In fact, none of the above mentioned have I ever experienced it before. Any unmistakably scenes should be taken objectively and be used as points of information. Any subjects or names mentioned are coincidental and should not be taken into any real account. I thank you for reading this post and hope to see you again.
