At this day, I flip the hard cover of my diary, tilt open my foundation pen and as I begin writing my story on a fresh new page, I entitled my first chapter "Why?"

18th April 2008, 11:59 pm. Another second from now, the first week of school term has marked its end leaving me with many thoughts and feelings. Frustrated, depressed, happy or confused? I am unsure of which should I be feeling right now.

I was hoping for a good head start especially when this is my last year in school. Concentrating on my studies was my utmost priority as I have no intention of leaving a trace of "black" marks in my academic results. Making new friends was not so much of a concern because some how or in some ways, I make friends quite easily. But staying closer with friends can seem a little meddlesome especially when some of us are drifting from one another due to separation from CCA or class arrangements.

So I thought I would fully utilize every opportunity that comes to gather friends from all sides of the world to work and enjoy the company we have with one another. In fact, the opportunity came and that was the River Raft Race event which I have taken up to do with reasons that I am unsure of back then. No matter what the reason is, one thing for sure is that I am reluctant to leave a very family oriented organization that has brought me new friends (sub or org comm) who have enriched my life in SB. I have them so much to thank for.

Now talking about class arrangement. I am pretty happy for the fact that I am still kept with the same class as last year. The only troubling thing is that 2 of my gang (The Miss Family) has been transferred to another class because of Entrepreneurship Concentration. The puzzled part is there are 3 others who are taking the same concentration who came over to our class. I am not saying that I do not welcome them, in fact I am happy to be able to make friends with them in time to come. But why did the management team had to transfer them to other unfamiliar classes? Can't they stay with the class they are close to? In any case, I wish all of them all the best and hope you guys can find joy in staying which classes you are posted to.

On the topic on staying closer with friends, I think my first step would be my participation in DBIT Bonding Day. It is an event where I actually work with my class ex chairman who has always been the middle man of two clans at the start of year 2 last year. I must say he has indeed done an excellent job in bonding the class. A very easy going person yet very decisive. May our first batch of committee strive to make our first bonding day event a success with so much fun and excitement.

I have received news that I have been elected as one of the four members to participate in Worldskill Competition in Singapore. When I heard the news, feeling happy and overjoyed seems so awkward. Frankly speaking, I did not expect myself to be one of the four much less my interest in this competition seems so scattered. Hoping to be free from the grasp of this competition and enjoy my last year to the fullest seems so impossible right now. Trainings after trainings will commence pretty soon. Is my life chained up again?

There was once a wise man asked, "人生是不是一个苦字？" He asked if life is all so bitter? Everyday, new problems surface, troubles keep building up in all of us, frustration seems never ending and we feel so confuse. Is heaven putting us on a test to determine our survival that makes us stonger or are we just the pawn pieces of their chess game?

The monk thought for a while and said, "人生不能以苦字形容。但能以时间来决定。人生短短几年，要学会拿得起，放得下。" He said life is so fragile and is determined not by frustrations but time itself. Learn to accept and let go certain things in life. Accept tasks given to you postively and do them well so that you will not only be satisfied but confident in accomplishing much more than what you think you can. But in exchange, there are certain things that you have to learn to let go, sacrifice, before a crisis fall upon you. This is refer to as equivalent trade in life.

Upon hearing this, I questioned myself "Why am I so different then?"

"If life is like what the old monk has said, why am I not doing it? Why am I so different?"