I am pretty much into Beyonce's new album call I Am... Sasha Fierce. 16 awesome tracks. Great lyrics, great vocal, great songs. Have been hooked on them for days. Songs that calms your nerves. Songs that makes you wanna dance. Go catch them if you haven't.

I have been missing for quite a few days. Those days were the best. The Charmed Brothers of 3 met up for dinner at man's place on Saturday. I've been looking forward to his mum's wonderful dishes. Especially those meat muffins I think. Suddenly I forgot what they are called. But they are simply the best. Love those.

It has been months since we met. Spoke about everything that falls under the sun. Stupid things actually. Back in those days when we are young and innocent. Divas' statement of the day "菊花茶不要冰" which means "chrysanthemum tea without ice" but with Tamil accent. 9+ years of friendship never seems to have fade even a single bit.

Then come Monday. I had a blast. Went for Coldplay concert at the Singapore Indoor Stadium. It was thrilling and exciting. My first "appearance" to a famous live band concert. The place was packed and is full-housed I tell you. Everyone was screaming and singing along to every songs. It was a pity I didn't listen to their album first, Viva la Vida. But still every moment was worth spending and thanks man for the invite.

If you haven't gone to any live concerts, you should really go for one and experience the atmosphere yourself. By the time you get home, your ears will be buzzed by this "wong wong" sound as if bees are around your ears. But that aside, another great album to listen to. Though is a little dark and echoic but still great songs are worth listening.

As for the job interview at Jurong East, I gave it a miss as I found a better one. Still in the deciding stage, I hope everything goes well.

Speaking of job hunting, to all DBIT graduates, my junior Lishi who is an intern for her attachment in Kelly Services (I think) is looking for long period committed(if you are not planning to study) CUSTOMER FULFILLMENT EXEC.

Your job will be doing Project Management, dealing with MS Office and IT applications. The pay is pretty attractive, around $1,800. If you are interested, email your resume to lishi_chen@kellyservices.com.sg. She will give you a call before forwarding your resume to the company.

Don't wait, act quickly. I really think the offers and job scopes are pretty reasonable and manageable. Give it a try if you haven't found a job yet. For more information, you can text or tag me and I'll ask her on your behalf. You can also email her and mention my name. P.s I am not receiving any benefits from this. Haha =]

I guess the news of NUS acceptance has been released over the past few days. I am glad to share that I got a place for a degree in Computing. To be accepted by a university is like a dream I and some of us (you know who) would never dare to imagine. Receiving such news is like a scroll from heaven. To have wasted a couple of years, I think all is worth it. (Though there are time I really wonder if they are really...).

Nevertheless, I congratulate those who have received their acceptance. To those who have yet to receive any news, no worries, there is still NTU and SMU. Don't lose hope, as you are in control of your own future. Plan and plan again if one plan has failed.

So I guess I will be seeing some of you during Graduation ceremony 26 May 2009. Remember to arrange a day for us to go down and choose our robe together. Weekdays evening and weekends preferred. For more information on Graduation related and details of the price to rent or buy the robe, click here.

Met up with Joshua and Victor last Saturday for dinner at Dhoby's Fish and Co. I think you will know where. Too bad Yan Shan couldn't make it. But we'll meet up soon. I'm really happy and amaze to catch up with these friends who I met during the first 3 months of JC (aka PAE). Sometimes I really wonder what keeps our friendship. Though we don't really communicate a lot and we have known one another for only a couple of weeks when we first became friends, there never seem to be anything we can't talk about. The 4 of us, somehow has this fascinating bond that I feel puzzled yet joyful about. Anyway, had a great time with them.

So, the results were officially released at 10 am today and later at 2 pm for the dip plus results. The school kind of lied in a sense that they announced the timing yet they send you email and SMS informing you much earlier. If you are caught unprepared or you have a very bad day, or just maybe you have a great day and all of a sudden you open the message, you see the results and...

Well, all I can say is I'm pretty much happy with the results. Was pretty shock though. Imagine the module PM which I was totally lost as first and at last, but somehow, the score fair so much better than the rest. And ADBMS, the killer module, was much better than ESSP which I thought I could score with the help of the 2 excellent reports. The rest were pretty much expected. So overall, I think I did OK. I hope all of you did well too. =]

Graduation ceremony will be held on 26 May 2009. I am in a dilemma. Ain't sure if I should be attending or give it a pass. The surprising news if you guys happen to not notice is that my course, DBIT, will be graduating with the School of Business (SB). All these years, I thought we will be graduating with the School of Digital Media and Info com Technology (DMIT), but the list said otherwise.

The best part is that I have to attend 2 ceremony to collect my results. One for my Dip Plus certificate under DMIT and the other for my DBIT certificate under SB. So, I'll be in school at 8:30 am for DMIT graduation and attend another round of graduation ceremony at 2:00 pm with SB. I guess I'm the first student to have to attend 2 Graduation ceremony. Thinking of it feels quite funny. But I get to graduate with my friends in DMIT and SB .

So, anyone going for the ceremony? If you are, do give me a tag or message. It will be great if we all attend. Never know when is the next time we will be meeting again . =]

And with the release of the results, I'm pretty much lost now. No longer a student, I feel empty. Waiting to be a soldier, I feel anxious. Ain't sure what the future holds and what must I do now? I received a call from PROMO to go down for an interview next week. The office is all the way down west near Jurong East Station. Any one of you heard about this company?

All I know is that I will be going down to big supermarket and I will be promoting products to consumers. I can imagine those people who we see at the streets promoting their woks and irons, saying how good the product is and demonstrating the products. Then all the uncle and auntie will ask questions like whether the product really works and all. If that's the case, doesn't that mean I have to learn how to cook in order to perform the demonstration =?

Counting down on the days where I will be arranging an outing for SB club. I heard some of them have head off to Cambodia for 13 days of community service. I guess they should be back by this week. So, the outing should be somewhere next week or so. Will inform you guys when the week draws nearer. It should be on one of the weekends. Any idea where to go? I am thinking of visiting the ZOO, Bird Park or watch a movie(taking up about 15 seats =]). Hahahaha.

Of course I will not forget the rest of you. I think Winnie is arranging something for all of us so that we can gather. Will ask her soon and see the progress. Hope you guys respond to her when she calls.

To Dram Mama people, you know who you are. I somehow got Marcus talking here. We have to meet as a group one of these days. Busy people, you know who you are again, give us a day, please. Haha.

And whoever wants to meet, you can always tag or message me =].

Will be quite busy for the next couple of days. The poster competition is due on 26 Mar 2009. I have to apply for IDA scholarship by the end of this month. And lots of paperwork to be sent to the different Unis. Haha. In the meantime, enjoy and ENJOY!

I guess most of have heard of the incident that happened in Germany recently. A teenager had shot dead several teachers and students in his former school. Eventually, taking his own life with a gun that he had stoled from his Dad's shop. Police are investigating the matter, but with the death of the suspect, the situation has become cumbersome. The teenage was said to be a quiet and good person.

Thinking back of the incident last night, I imagined myself to be in school with a couple of people in the gymnasium. Moments later, a boy enters the entrance, draws out something black and polished and fires aimlessly. The glass doors and walls shatter with every shot he triggers. He didn't seem like he had a target to hit, but the people around me are tainted with red blood and lying motionlessly on the ground.

I hid myself behind a wall. With every breath I took, I have difficult controlling the next. I am panting. I am panting really heavily. Is this due to all the workout? Or is it something else? I smell death. I feel lost. The signs in front of me have all gone swirly and everything is spiraling.

I have to run. And I know I have to run. But what if my next step places my eyes in front of an invisible nail that drills a hole through my skull. Maybe I should stay and hide myself away from him. Or maybe...

"I make the decision. I am going to run. I have to."

Open my eyes and standing in front of me I see him. For a short moment, I saw a reaper holding a scythe in his right arm, placing the blade right above my forehead. He seems lonely, lost. Something seems to be bothering him, but he just won't tell. But one thing for sure, he is thirsty for something. He looks selfish. He isn't playing fair. Bang! 

I can't figure out what was it. Did a car accident happen? Has someone come to salvage the situation?

Everything in front of me became blurred and out of proportion. I am not looking straight. Somehow my vision rotated 90 degrees clockwise. Darkness pitched in and silence is the only thing I can hear. I feel light as if every matter around me were vacuumed away by a gigantic vacuum cleaner. My breathing became easier. There is no heavy panting, there is no gasping. There is no air flow. 

I try to move and want to shout. But none responded. My forehead feels wet. Maybe it is just sweat or maybe it is ... I feel like sleeping. I really want to sleep.

"Welcome to News 5 tonight. Good evening everyone, this is Gabriel Tan."

"Earlier this afternoon, a teenage shot dead several teachers and students in his former school. Eventually, taking his own life with a gun that he had smuggled in. Police are investigating the matter, but with the death of the suspect, the situation has become cumbersome. The teenage was said to be a quiet and good person."

For a moment, I thought I was dreaming. But somehow everything felt real. I could sense, just somehow. Not breathing. Not hearing anything. Is this death?

So, went running today and thought of many things. As I set my eyes in the beautifully gloomily sky, seeing the polished black birds fly, I realize nature has really done a great job in making our environment so comfortable and vibrant. It doesn't have to be red, blue, green or yellow colours that will always put a smile on our face. Sometimes a large vast of black and gray really comforts our busy and swaying souls.

Somewhere in our life, we face a really difficult situation or we are unsure if we've been played and should we continue the game. We crazily seek for advices but the irony is that we all come to a point really thinking for ourselves, "What should be the next step?" And no matter how much we want to deny, the answers always lie somewhere in our unconscious mind.

Seeing the clouds forming with the wind, glazing the sea waves as they splashes up and collapses back slowly, we realize ...

Can't really say much. But always remember a predicament always has many possible solutions, it only matters which is the best. Find someone to talk things out and you'll know, somehow, the answer is already inside you.

So, I have sent out a couple of resumes to other companies for a part time job. And I think I'll resend the resumes to the previous companies I have applied. I hope I'll get one. Soon.

Hope all of you are doing well on your side too =]

Today has rather been a satisfying day. Nothing much happened, but somehow I feel happy.

Getting back to reality. I have a poster to do and I really need to FIND A PART TIME JOB. I'm getting really bored at home and I feel so useless. Sent out my resumes but none has responded. At least give me a sign to tell me that I'm not accepted so that I can search for others. Am I too good for them or have I typed my resumes wrongly? I really wonder. Haha.

Anyways, if you guys have a job to offer me, do leave me a message or tag me. I'm looking into retail, roadshows/events and admin/clerical kind of job. Easy and not so time consuming. In any case, if you have any connections or good recommendations don't forget about me. Thanks =]

I'm itching to watch good movies and dine with good old friends. Watchman seems really cool. No preference for food. So, Anyone free? Haha. Maybe if I start working, I'll have less time thinking about all these things.

8 more days to go before the released of the results. Close to a month before graduation ceremony begins. Another 2 months or so when I become bold. 3 months and I'm 21.Feelings? Lost of words or there are just too many to use.

Sitting on my comfort chair, typing along as I listen to my favourite songs. Hearing the pattering rain drops, enjoying the coolness of the day. Life seems so empty, so cold these days.

27 February marks the last day of poly life and I await a new chapter of my life to begin. Many thoughts, many feelings, occupying the motionless mind of mine have been the things that kept me going these days.

"What should I do today?"

"What happens if I ...?"

"..."

These are questions that have been hovering around my empty skull. What can I do? Boring!

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Anyway, somethings to share over the past weeks.

1. On the last day of my paper, I had ice cream at Häagen-Dazs kindly sponsored by Melissa. I ordered some Mango don't know what but it tasted super nice and "mangoly" heaven. Say a big THANK YOU to her. "THANK YOU" =]. (Hut Teng, photos please =?)

2. Met man and diva for lunch at PLU. Had so much to talk about. Great to see you guys. Too bad the rest couldn't make it. Hope to meet up soon. Lunch, dinner, anything. And Marcus, you too.

3. This may sound crazy to some of you, but I took part in the Green Innovation Competition for my school. Yes, SP DMIT. Our aim is to design a poster to promote clean and green awareness (if I'm not wrong). Why are we in it? We are officially graduating sometime in April so we are still students of SP. The prize money of $1000 seems rather attractive. And we thought we had nothing to do during the vacation but we are dead wrong. *Laugh!Laugh! The deadline has been extended if I'm not wrong to 31 March 2009. Is this bad or good? Can't make a judgement. Anyway wish us luck.

4.Went shopping with diva to get Dinner and Dance clothing. I was quite lucky to get good clothes from G2000 Black at super cheap price. A pants which cost like $169 was selling at $69 and a shirt that cost $109 was going at $59. Shoes which cost $79.90 were discounted to $39.90. This is all possible because of the recession. But I still hope the economy stabilises when I start working in a couple of years time.

5. Did a graduation video which will be shown on graduation day happening next month. It was embarrassing as I have to be someone else and the questions were in prompt to. Anyway there's always a first time in everything. Should it turn out real bad, do pardon me. Haha.

6. SB DND. I felt awkward and misplaced as I didn't know at least 90 percent of the people there. Everywhere I went, I see unfamiliar faces. But the food was good and the whole event was entertaining. Manage to catch up with some SB club members. Maybe one day I should organise an outing for all the juniors and seniors of SB club. Haha. Maybe.

7. Applied for 5 jobs from jobcentral.com. They are either sales promoter or clerical jobs. Hope to be able to get one of them otherwise I'll be bored to death.

8. And as you can see. I have changed the skin of this blog. Hope you like it and enjoy the rest of your holidays or work if you're working.

All the best =]